Seeking Sakina

Now I know better. 

I used to promise myself forgiveness, only to revisit old wounds, but now I understand the power of letting go. I once clipped the wings of my own dreams out of fear, but now I embrace them, letting them soar. I used to think so little of myself when I needed to stand tall, but now I recognize my worth.

I swallowed lies when I was starving for truth, but now I seek honesty, especially with myself. I believed the pain I endured as a child was my fault, but now I know I was never to blame. I withheld grace from myself, the same grace I so easily offered to others, but now I give it freely to myself too.

I let the world convince me that my heart was both too much and not enough, but now I see it for what it truly is—whole and worthy. I wasted days pretending to be someone else, trying to earn acceptance, but now I live authentically, on my own terms, unafraid of mistakes. I punished myself for far too long, but now I choose compassion over self-criticism.

I once believed that love had to be bloody and painful, that I didn’t deserve better, but now I know that love should uplift and heal. I used to look in the mirror and hate what I saw, but now I see someone deserving of kindness and respect.

Now, I realize I spent too much time focused on how others wronged me when the real apology was owed to myself—for not valuing this one precious life and for not recognizing that I am worthy of the very best. And for that, I have learned to forgive myself. 

Happiness isn’t in how your home looks, but in how you love the people inside.

It’s not about success or approval, but feeling at peace with yourself.

It’s not having the best, but making the best of what you have, and noticing the silver linings, even when life isn’t perfect.

Alhamdulillah for everything

When you feel you have lost your purpose in life, when you find yourself consumed by this Dunya turn to the creator for he created you with purpose for a purpose 
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Indeed my Lord is with me, He will guide me

Sura Shu’ara, 26:62

Inna Ma’iya Rabbi Sayahdini

Moses story has always been one that I turn to. This Sura has always meant so much to me, in my most difficult times.

It has always been my anchor to Allah. The rope to which I hold onto with faith and hope when it appears all else has failed.

Tawakkul is the key in situations where we see no hope

Tawakkul brings Allah’s pleasure and reward, and is a blessing that nurtures and strengthens our faith. It gives us hope, contentment with His decree, and confidence, especially in times of fear and uncertainty.

Allah promises, “And whoever relies upon Allah, then He is sufficient for him” [65:3]. As Ibn al-Qayyim said, “*Tawakkul* is half of the religion, and the other half is *inābah*—to return to Allah in all affairs and repentance.”

The Straight Path we seek requires faith, gratitude, and patience, along with placing our trust in Allah.

This reliance, or *tawakkul*, is one of the greatest acts of worship on this path. Allah commands, “…and upon Allah rely, if you should be believers” [3:122].

Being vulnerable requires true strength, as it involves stepping out from behind the masks we present to the world.

In many religious and spiritual circles, there is a pervasive belief that you aren’t good enough and must constantly do more, often leading to a form of gaslighting that blames you for your struggles by implying you aren’t doing enough.

The importance of rest is frequently overlooked, and there’s immense pressure to keep doing, which exacerbates the very suffering we seek to avoid. We place an unbearable amount of pressure on ourselves to fix our surroundings and our inner selves, causing us to lose sight of our blessings as we focus on what’s wrong or missing instead of what we already have.

Recall a time when you thought you couldn’t go on, when the burden seemed too heavy, and compare it to now. Didn’t He take care of you? All that is required of you is to turn towards Him and trust. “And in Allah let the faithful put their trust” [14:12].

So allow yourself to be vulnerable … your strength lays in your ability to be real

Letting go

Loving someone who’s slipping away is painful. You fight to hold on, only to realize the more you try, the deeper it hurts. So, you let go to protect yourself. Yet, even as you walk away, a part of you lingers in the empty spaces they once filled, an unshakable shadow bound to the fading light of what might have been.

For you

If my energy does not wake you up, I am not for you.

If my spirit does not inspire you, do not force the connection.

If my thoughts do not make you think deeper, then it is better to change direction.

If my presence does not help you evolve, my absence certainly will.

If my love does not open your heart, another love will.

Go and find what makes you vibrate, do not stop, do not look behind!

I was asked recently why do you write when you don’t push your writing on your book ?

I don’t write for likes or popularity or followers as has become the trend in determining a persons worth on social media of late

I write for me.

Never will I sacrifice authenticity for approval.

Early in my life I was taught to Stay true to yourself and your beliefs, and always write from the heart. To always avoid the temptation to copy others or write solely for likes and popularity.

I learnt that by prioritizing authenticity over seeking validation, you actually honor your true self and make a meaningful impact on those around you.

We are all unique and your voice and experiences give a voice and perspective to your words and that is what truly resonates with others and contributes to a genuine connection in your writing.

So keep writing even when you think no one is listening.

“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” ~ Rumi

We all bear numerous scars on our hearts and souls. Some we acknowledge, some we hide, and others remain fresh, causing recurrent heartache and pain.

Why don’t we allow our past scars to heal? It’s because we don’t truly love ourselves.

Self-love is essential for healing, well-being, joy, self-empowerment, and creating the life you desire. You cannot find happiness if you are not at peace with yourself. Your relationship with yourself is the most important one you’ll ever have.

Spiritually, turning inward lets you experience your connection with Life, God, and All That Is. Physically, every relationship you have mirrors aspects of your relationship with yourself.

Self-love is a profound dedication to your happiness. It is a continuous choice to embrace life, here and now, in your own body. It involves valuing yourself, building a meaningful relationship with yourself, and supporting your dreams with encouraging thoughts and actions.

Every person carries their own personal truth, molded by their unique experiences, beliefs, and perspectives. These individual truths are meaningful and significant to each person, reflecting the diverse ways we understand and interpret the world around us.

However, personal truths are inherently subjective and can vary greatly from one person to another.

In Islam, it is believed that amidst these numerous personal truths, there exists one ultimate and absolute truth found in Allah. This divine truth is eternal, unchanging, and transcends the limitations of individual perspectives. Allah’s truth provides a steadfast foundation in a world where personal truths can often be relative and fluctuating.

By turning to Allah, we can seek guidance, wisdom, and clarity. Through sincere devotion, prayer, and adherence to the teachings of Islam, believers are able to navigate the complexities of life with a sense of purpose and direction. In seeking Allah, we find a source of truth that is not merely personal but universal, offering a path to spiritual fulfillment and inner peace.