Plans

If you had told me back in 2016, no wait 2015 that I would be where I am today I would have said you were absolutely MAD.

I would never have believed you that I would have got married within 48 hours of physically meeting in a country I’ve never been. I would never have believed that at 44 I would have had another baby. I would never of believed you that I would also divorce someone I truly loved 7 years later. I most certainly would never have believed you that I would have survived a global pandemic, had almost died twice or that I would have become Muslim.

You see there is our plan and there is Allah’s plan.

Whilst sometimes its difficult to see why certain things have to happen the way they do, especially when they are breaking our hearts or placing us so close to death, but everything is by design and for a reason, even if that reason is not clear to us.

It is always clear to Allah.

He heard the conversations you didn’t, he sees into the heart of everyone, believers and non believers. He sees the road, before you have placed even a foot onto it.

So if something is removed we must trust that it was for our own good and that he will replace it with something better

I view my path to Islam as one that was fraught with obstacles, things and people that sadly had to be removed as they were not supporting me in my growth , in my connection to a deeper truth. I will always carry them in a place in my heart as they were part of the journey I am now on, but I release them all with love.