Emotions

Today has been emotional still trapped in bed by covid hardly being able to breathe or move without passing out trying my best to cope with a house imploding around me trying to keep my faith that this is a test I shall pass from Allah to find my little girl has covid too.

To watch her get worse as the evening went on to be filled with flashbacks and have ptsd fears of when I almost lost her to sepsis …to the damage it’s left her with and care she needs I am struggling to keep my faith tonight.

Unable to get to my mat I call out to Allah to protect her to remove this covid to remove these thoughts these tears and worries that are weighing so heavy alone.

In the silence I hear my own body struggling to breathe

Everything will be ok

Alhandulillah