Covid #2

Here we go again ….. this strain is so very different … faster and harder as I found out the evening of the 25th December where I collapsed and found it difficult to breathe. The next 34 hours were filled with hallucinations with my body shaking and hurting so much I could have screamed had it not been from the spasms in my jaw that prevented me. I’ve had flu really bad before and this wasn’t it this wasn’t even like the delta variant I had last year this was much worse and yet today I still can’t breathe properly but I feel like the worst is over….. not to tempt shaytan but I woke and got up for a few hours although this pain in my left temple is really hurting as it did the first night. Exhaustion doesn’t cover it a walk up the stairs requiring me to stop half way and breathe before continuing so I can collapse on the bed isn’t helping when you have 4 children three of which need constant support. I know that allah doesn’t burden you with more then you can handle and that each test brings after it greater rewards but did my oven truly have to blow up really ??